Your Relationship is your Greatest Asset
“Please don’t reject me when I tell you this!”
I was screaming these words so loudly inside my head that I thought Christian could hear it.
Actually, I thought the koala could hear it. He gave a sleepy nod in my direction and what I perceived as a very knowing look. We were on a day trip to Australia Zoo, a wild experience.
“Please take it well, please don’t misunderstand, please let’s keep in harmony” my inner-monologue continued.
You may have an inner monologue similar to this when confiding with friends and family, but the stakes are higher when you are sharing something very, very, honest with your love partner. Extremely high. You do not want to lose them, so sometimes you wonder if you can be totally honest with them and allow them to be totally honest with you.
Communication in a love relationship is unique: you are special to one another, you are with each other for so much of the time, you want peace and harmony yet you have wants and needs to honestly express.
“I need to tell you something, and it’s going to take a lot of courage for me to tell you this.”
Good start Caroline, but where do you go from here?
I usually bottle things up and then explode during a heated moment. Christian tends to be more honest, but this can be hurtful. Often I keep things to myself, but he still feels the stirrings underneath. This time I was more prepared. The nature and animals around worked their special kind of charm and made me want to disclose, draw closer, share what was really going on and, I hoped, made Christian more receptive. Setting the right environment is important. This was the right moment.
“Okay, I’m listening” Christian held my hand as we walked through a wetlands area singing with birds.
Silence. Deep breath. Look at him Caroline, you can say it.
“When you….I feel….And you have been doing that a lot lately. I need you to be more….”
Whew! I said it and then held my breath.
We often confide on this level, but this time, what I needed to tell him went to the very deep core of our relationship. The stakes were much higher.
I felt like a meerkat on sentry. On guard, watching for the slightest sign of disturbance. I watched Christian closely, the tightening of his jaw muscle. What was it in his eyes, hurt, betrayal, confusion?
“Thank you for telling me.”
Silence as he took it in.
Honesty is tough. It risks a lot. It leaves you standing naked. But that’s kind of what’s supposed to happen in a personal relationship. For a time you sacrifice the harmony in your relationship and go through uncertainty for a deep togetherness, very deep. And yes, you sometimes hurt your love-partner in the process. Truth does that.
The closer someone is, the more they love you, but the more they can hurt you.
“What can I do to make it easier for you” he said through the hurt. We talked it through. A long, difficult talking through.
Before you back away from the daunting task of being more honest with your love-partner, and have them be honest with you, keep in mind the following:
A relationship means sharing love, and having someone who knows and understands you.
If you feel misunderstood by everyone, but your love- partner understands you; life is OK.
If you feel abandoned by everyone, but your love-partner accepts you; life is pretty good.
If you feel betrayed, hated or cheated by everyone, but your love-partner stands by you, loves you and is faithful to you; life is great.
As we walked through another large aviary we saw two Australian Emerald Doves flying from tree to tree. I wanted to take a photo of them but they were too busy following each other. One would move to a tree and the other would try and keep up. They didn’t always get it right, but they always ended up on the same branch somehow, standing by each other, just belonging to each other. It feels wonderful to be known.
After this disclosure Christian knew a lot more about me and it felt wonderful. Honesty peels back the layers, exposing the true gold and growing the deep love underneath.
Welcome to our blog. Each blog contains an insight into your relationship and how to mend or grow it drawn from Christian's 18 years of clinical experience working in psychiatry. They are told as stories. The central ideas are in bold. All the pictures are originals. We post once a month. Looking forward to travelling with you in this amazing journey called life.